10/26
Well i fear my facebook friends are gettin real sick of seeing all my 'sick girl' pics and updates, yet i have plenty more to say. So, here we go.
Okay so it all started on Monday. I was having life anxiety about having a college degree and folding clothes for a living, not knowing where i want to go or who i want to be. So, I took a temp job in an insurance office for a day in hopes of having a follow up interview. Got there, they stuck me in tiny office with no windows or humans, reading tiny numbers and making phone calls to French people. i started making the calls, but after a while, I freaked. i began to panic. my hands started shaking. i ran to the bathroom and puked my guts out and went home thanking goodness that i would have the opportunity to fold clothes in a lively environment with music, interaction and the greatest people in the world the following day. (i don't do well in offices lacking emotional and interpersonal stimulation)
Well i went home to sleep it off, but to my surprise, woke up feeling worse. i slept thru the night, but could hardly breathe the next morning. my stomach pain was intense and i spent almost all of Tuesday in the bathroom. In fact, i've spent everyday since then the exact same way. The body aches are unforgiving and the headache- relentless. The throwing up has stayed down to once or twice a day, mainly in my throat, but i haven't been so fortunate on the other end (ew gross). I can't eat. The mere thought makes me sick. I am down to about 200 calories a day. The weird thing- i haven't had a fever, nobody around me has gotten sick (aka boyfriend), i haven't traveled out of the country or gone camping, and no... I'M NOT PREGNANT. haha if i had a dime for every time someone asked me that in the past week. i really just thought it was the stomach flu... but i can hardly move now. I went to instacare yesterday but they couldn't diagnose me so they sent me home with nausea medicine and some pedialite (sp?). I woke up worse and went to the U where they gave me Another pregnancy test (which was negative as i insisted) and hooked me up to an IV (ThrEe pokes later) to give me some fluids since i was so dehydrated. They ran some urine and blood tests that i will find out about on Monday. Doc thinks it may be a bladder or kidney infection. He put me on some meds and sent me home. Am i feeling better? more or less.
But i think this battle has been as much mental as it has been physical. First off, let's talk about everything i've missed... aka work! okay i'm not exactly financially fit these days. missing a week of work... Ouch! really not ideal. at all. Not to mention it's been an uphill battle to get my shifts covered, but i've had a lot of help at the dance studio so that is nice. Additionally, i have missed basically everything that requires leaving my bed. i lay here all day and watch tv. everytime i think i'm well enough to leave the house... i soon regret it. it's weird... when you're sick it feels like you'll Never get better. or is that just me? it feels like this is my life now- no wonder i'm depressed. i've never been sick for longer than a day or two, so this is just cramping my style.
But i have had some serious support... William has been a Saint! I don't even know where to begin. He has literally waited on me hand and foot. And since i ended up going cold turkey on my normal daily meds... i haven't exactly been the most pleasant to be around. But boy he has had more patience and love and forgiveness than anyone i know. Talk about Charity and Christ-like attitude. This man exemplifies the Savior. I have cried multiple times each day, but he has been there for every tear. He has rubbed my back and gotten my meds each time i've needed. He goes straight from the house to class, and then runs back home to check on me in between classes even tho he's still trying to cram in his work and school load at the same time. I feel bad, but this experience has really made him grow up quick and he's done it with flying colors. I can't say enough good things about my man, he has really pulled thru for me.
And he's not the only one... my mom has been a Huge help and support, in more than one way. She met me at the doctor today and got me the help i may have otherwise missed out on.
And from everyone else! i am really just so grateful for the concerned texts and comments and prayers... they mean a lot to mean. When you're cooped up in a bed all day it's nice to see how much people care.
So here's to hoping I get better. prayers welcomed. I guess this illness will just run its course, which hopefully won't be too much longer. Choking down crackers and water will only last so long.
all in all this experience has helped me be So grateful for my health- please protect yours. And it has made me truly admire and look up to those individuals that have to endure longer illnesses. It makes me sick (lol) to think of someone having to live this way for longer a week. What strong spirits are among us!
xoxo miss jer bree
10/27
Wow. Words cannot express my joy and gratitude today. "my cup runneth over". I feel so.much.better. So apparently it was a kidney infection, and those meds and prayers really worked!! Wow i am beyond grateful i can have my life back and wash my hair again lol. My heart truly goes out to those enduring or that have endured longer illnesses- i applaud you.
Embrace and nourish your body! you only get one!
xoxo miss jer bree
