I mean GEEZE!!!
My life is a whirlwind. Like honestly. I opened the business- it's going very well. A lot of stress and consumption of my life and sanity, but it's great. It's hard, too. I did a lot of growing up in a little amount of time. I should be used to that, but this time it was a little harder. Or maybe it just feels that way...
I am at that age where I have become aware of my growing up and the agency involved. Maybe this is what makes it sting a bit more. Ya know like at age 3 kids are basically doing the same thing as other 3 years old. And even seniors in high school are generally just being seniors in high school with the rare outliers. But once you hit 23 years old... i mean wow! There is a vast spectrum of life decisions being made and the degree to which people are making them. Some 23 year olds are married with 2 kids (you go Tune). Some are working retail and deciding if they want to pursue college. Some are partying and making the greatest mistakes of their lives. Some are opening businesses while others are dancing on poles. Some are applying to grad schools while others are applying for a divorce. I mean by golly! The options are endless. And the range in maturity levels... incredible.
I feel like I was ready for this growth spurt. I guess? I mean are you really ever ready? How is readiness determined? by completing the previous stage? or by having an imminent need revealed? Who knows. Well I jumped into the studio biz and went full throttle and then I suddenly started feeling the pressure. I am now the face of a brand. People are choosing to invest in my brand based on many things- myself included. Such investments determine the outcome of my business. But no pressure...
***Studio
It started with a twerk video my friend Adriane and I made. It wasn't anything nasty like Miley Cyrus. It was a fun harmless video for a 22yo to make... as long as she isn't the face of a classy thousand dollar investment. I started feeling so torn like... eff the world imma be young and do me!! Haha but I pushed through and maintained that image.
Last night I was sitting with my little girls. I was painting a door at the studio and they were sitting around visiting. One of them said "Miss Jerica. You are going to be such a great mom when you grow up!" Another one piped in "Hello!! Miss Jerica is already grown up!" Another one combated with, "No she isn't! She is still young and likes boys and stuff." The last one commented "Yeah maybe when she and Hayes get married she will be a grown up."
Oh how much joy this brought me. Not to mention- these girls are my world. But the fact that they realize I am young and I am human!! Although I still won't tell them that my "W" tattoo is real, I am allowed to be myself in their eyes and be silly and make mistakes and recover. These little girls love me for who I am and for how old I am. And goodness know they respect me and understand when to treat me as their coach and not their friend. It helped me realize that I can do both- run the business and enjoy my youth. What a relief this was!
So anyway, reconciling that has been a huge step.
And besides annoying mom complaints, dead bats, broken ballet bars, more annoying moms, a leaking roof, third-degree burns, a few more annoying moms and cleaning toilets- I honestly feel like this dance studio is a dream!
No really tho... the annoying moms are few and far between. They just tend to seem larger than life in my head. The bulk of them love and support me like no tomorrow. And I get to sleep in every day! Hollar! Being my own boss was a dream come true. And a nightmare... ;)
***Hayes
The guy's a dream. I don't want to brag too much or I fear someone will try their luck with him haha. Our relationship has been pure bliss. There must be something that happens at 2.5 years of dating. It isn't honeymoon stage... and it's past the reality check... it is pure bliss. Ya know? like when you realize you are both in it for the long haul and you have a system in place that works and you just fall deeper in love each day. He is incredible. Makes me laugh so hard. Literally my best friend- I can only say that because we have gone thru hell together. Multiple times. But when I am with him I am happy. Treats me like a goddess and all we want to do is serve each other and nurture our relationship. Our love has turned more selfless than it has ever been, and he is seriously my world. I'm pretty sure the insta-universe is sick of hearing about him. But I can't help it- the guy really is a dream.
Other updates: I am as big as a house, but working at getting to the gym. My Family is perfect as always. I need to write a post about my dad... soon hopefully.
xoxo Miss Jer Bree
