It's been made. And it's final.
I am thrilled! I am thrilled I get to stay in state with my family, friends, Business, etc. I am thrilled that he will graduate completely debt free. I am thrilled I get to stay with my baby girls and nurture my studio until it is the biggest, most well-known in the state! I am thrilled we get to live in one of our favorite cities ever- Cottonwood Heights. Where we both grew up! I am thrilled he got a scholarship. I am thrilled it will be a cake walk for him to be in the top of his class. I am thrilled.
But if I were to end there, I wouldn't be being "real". Which is why I started this blog- to be real. Really me and really honest. I am honestly Stoked about this decision, but I am also a little bummed. I am bummed that Hayes had to turn down a freaking phenomenal scholarshp offer (they practically begged) from a ranked 15 school! (The U is 40 or 50 something) I am bummed I don't get to move to California and live in the only other place than here that feels like I belong. I am bummed that Hayes doesn't get to show off a fancy bumper sticker of a top-ranked law school (many of which accepted him) that is brag worthy. I am bummed the projected median salary went from 6 to 5 digits once we picked this school. But at the end of the day, I am realizing that the Lord has blessed me with a new kind of trial. (Thank goodness he gave me a break from the other ones- I don't think I could have handled any more).
I am used to handling crazy, chaotic, cops-involved trials and drama. But this is different. This is a quiet, logical trial. Like I said in my other post, emotion can't solve or cope with this trial. Which is nice! I am just not used to it.
I am learning to be grateful, and stable, and in love with my life and the guy I get to share it with- that part is easy. I am learning to make decisions as a couple (something very difficult for this domineering diva). I am learning that sometimes my way is not the best way (don't tell the dancers this haha). I am learning that bigger is not always better, and that following your heart and ignoring your head only works when you're a young single adult (moving to DC, falling in love with a rocker in Malibu, opening a dance studio). But now that I am getting older, I am realizing there are other good options. Not just the most exciting ones.
So there you have it. Maybe I am a little bitter because I bleeeeeed blue haha. But you betcha I will support that red through and through!
I cannot even fathom what the future has in store, and I could not be more excited. All I know is that as long as I am with William, all is well. Oh and God was right- it does all work out if you trust him.
xoxo Will's Wife